Janelle Brown Says Late Son Never Showed ‘Sad Feelings’

After six months of grieving and a number of tributes, Janelle Brown is lastly able to shed extra mild on her son Garrison’s dying.

The “Sister Wives” star just lately addressed her son’s suicide, revealing that she and the Brown clan have been shocked by his determination to finish his life. She claimed there have been no indicators of melancholy or hints of his heartbreaking plans.

Garrison was the fourth oldest of Janelle’s six youngsters with Kody Brown. He handed away in March on the younger age of 25, along with his mom believing his “substance abuse” points performed a big function in his dying.

Garrison’s dying by suicide blindsided his household for a number of causes, with the largest being the absence of psychological well being struggles. “We simply had no concept that he was in that place,” Janelle confessed in a brand new interview.

The TLC star famous that Garrison’s “substance abuse” doubtless influenced his mind-set earlier than his dying. Nonetheless, she burdened that “he did not ever categorical any type of excessive unhappy emotions.”

“The truth is, he was very humorous, very upbeat. He had a profession path that he was enthusiastic about. He had a life, he had associates,” Janelle recalled. She famous her son incessantly checked in on family members and even adopted one other cat in direction of the top of his life.

The heartbroken mom revealed Garrison was “actually excited” about his profession prospects, telling PEOPLE, “We truly have been having conversations. He had all of the assets that he might have wanted.”

Janelle doubled down on there being zero indicators of Garrison’s devastating plan to finish his life, given the way in which he appeared to have a deal with on issues. “This was simply such a shock. We simply by no means anticipated this,” she stated, including:

“I actually truly had type of thought like, ‘Okay, perhaps he is lastly beginning to get his momentum.‘” 

“It is laborious in your twenties to seek out your path. And I used to be actually excited, so it was such a shock as a result of there was simply no indication in any respect,” Janelle lamented.

She famous that Garrison’s dying opened her coronary heart to different males his age affected by hidden psychological well being struggles, saying: “We needs to be talking extra, particularly about psychological well being for males, and that there is not any disgrace in getting assist and looking for assist.”

Psychological well being consciousness has develop into a big a part of the Brown household, with Janelle revealing that Garrison’s dying impressed them to verify in on family members. “We’re very actual, and we assess,” she started, including:

“Life conditions come up, and we’re at all times like, ‘Okay, so what about psychological well being?’ We truly say the phrases, and we wait to listen to what’s actually taking place, not simply type of gloss over it.”

“I believe we’re positively placing extra inventory in psychological well being in our household,” Janelle continued. Whereas Garrison may need benefited from this type of “actual check-ins,” the mom of six understood that she could not change the previous.

Whereas reflecting on the household’s relationship with Garrison, Janelle confessed, “I do not know what we might have performed in another way. We have been positively—and I’d encourage everyone to be that manner—having actual conversations with him.”

“We have been providing assets, we have been at all times speaking to him, we have been loving him. All of the issues have been there. It actually simply was one thing he couldn’t… just like the demon, he could not get on high of the battle. He could not appear to recover from,” she burdened.

“It simply wasn’t for lack of affection or lack of something. And all I can do is suppose… we at all times ask ourselves, might we have now performed one thing extra, however I do not know,” Janelle continued, noting:

“I believe that is a grief lure as a result of I believe, finally, everyone is accountable for their personal actions and their very own choices. However we did every part. We actually did every part that we might have performed.”

Days earlier than her new interview, Janelle mirrored on Garrison’s dying in a poignant put up on Instagram. She shared an image of her late son wrapping his arms round her and putting a kiss on the facet of her temple.

“6 months in the past right this moment, you went away. You come up in my photograph recollections virtually every single day. Generally it would not look like you are gone,” the heartbroken mom penned within the caption, adding:

“After which I bear in mind I will not be getting a name or textual content from you, and all of it comes speeding again. I do know you fought laborious, however ultimately, you simply could not keep.”

“I like you a lot and can see you once more when my journey is finished,” Janelle concluded. Her phrases obtained hundreds of condolences from followers, with some resonating together with her grief.

Janelle Brown will return to followers’ TV screens on Sunday, September 15, for the brand new season of TLC’s “Sister Wives.”